I don't even know

So surfing yesterday morning was great. Well the surf wasn't great but hanging out and being at the beach was awesome. Then we served lunches to people in our community. And man, I am so thankful I was able to be apart of that. The three people we talked to were so thankful and appreciative. I don't think they know, but I felt more blessed by them then they were by me. I mean, so often I forget how lucky I am. To sit in my room filled with things and have food down the hall. God really has blessed me. after that my friend shared with me a co-worker of his committed suicide yesterday. And it just breaks my heart... how he did it and to hear what he left behind... It just makes me think about life and how fragile it is. I mean, the fact someone has the power to take their life by choice is crazy to me. I don't understand. And I know I am in no place to judge, it just doesn't make sense to me. So after all that heavy stuff, a group of us went to Disneyland for the night. It was a lot of fun. I loved being there and with people who make me so happy. They just bring me so much joy