Out of My Hands

Alright God, this is in Your hands. I know you know what's best and I trust You. I trust your plan is better than mine. Let your will be done. Whatever it is, I will follow you. Lead me, show me what you want me to do and how you want me to act. Show me what you want me to do. Lead me. Reveal yourself to us. You are in control. And I want what you want. Take control Lord

Thoughts

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- His good, pleasing, and perfect will." -Romans 12:2

I have let negative thoughts control my mind since I was a little girl. Doubts, insecurities, worries.. all of these consumed my mind making my an insecure person. Those thoughts affected my relationships and how I saw myself. Letting my mind run free makes me over analyze things that I probably don't have to worry about. Now I realize that those thoughts are not of the Lord. I dont want to be scared all the time. I want to be fearless. And through God, I know I can be.  God is in control and I trust that everything that happens is in His will.

Free to be Relentless

I had the most encouraging devotional this morning. I needed to hear this so much today.

"Relentlessly pursuing God is not necessarily easy, but it's definitely worth it. However, you can't really pursue God until you've first experienced real freedom.

God is in the business of setting us free, and it's glorious to be free from guilt, condemnation, and always wondering what people are thinking of us.

We're set free from the concern of failing when we know who we are in Christ. This brings us the courage to be able to step out and pursue God's promises.

God, I want to live a new life, relentlessly pursuing you and your promises. I trust You to help me become all You created me to be and experience true freedom."

Come As You Are

"You have joy and peace today. You are redeemed, accepted, and made right with God because of the way He sees you in Christ. You are already loved and accepted by Him. Not 'you will be someday'. You are destined to be molded into the image of Christ, and nothing can stop that from happening if you will simply cooperate with the Holy Spirit and spend time with God. You don't have to clean up your act first. You can come as you are, and God will make you what you ought to be." -Joyce Meyer

I have really been trying to spend more time with God lately. And I just feel like I fall short all the time. It is so easy to get discouraged, but I was so encouraged to hear that I don't have to have my act together when I talk to God. I mean, He already knows whats going on in my life.. so theres not much for me to hide. But the fact I dont have to pull it all together or start over when I fail before I go to Christ is so comforting. I love that He accepts me because He sees who I am through Christ. and I love how God can "make me who I ought to be" just how I am right now. Thank you Lord!!

Countdown

I think I had the best Christmas break ever. I loved being busy and having something to do everyday. I loved going to the beach, and walking the lights and eating all day everyday. but the thing about being busy is it makes the time go by faster.. I really dont want to go to school tomorrow. I really dont want to work on a history project and then give a presentation on it and have my teacher make me look like an idiot in front of the class. And I also dont want to go back and relearn all the information I forgot for the finals I have to take in two weeks. I know once I get back in the swing of things, it will be fine. But as of right now, I would much rather be home. But I am so thankful for the break I had. I had such a great time not worrying about any homework and hanging out with my man. I loved being able to relax and not worry. So.. approximately 70 more days until spring break. Let the countdown begin

Resolutions

This year, I am going to be fearless. And let this blog hold me accountable as I go through life this coming year. I am not going to worry anymore. Because I know how much it affects my relationships and everything I do. And I am so tired of worrying about what others think, I want to be a beautiful, strong, and fearless woman through Christ. I am going to be secure in who I am and know that who I am is enough in anything I do. I am not going to spend my time worrying about being a person that lives to please everyone else. I think being secure in myself means being secure through Christ, and knowing who I am through Him. It was so beautiful this morning, I went for a run on the beach before we had to leave our campsite at Encinitas. And I was just running along, and Divine Romance came on my iPod. and normally, I would have easily skipped that song to a more upbeat tempo, but this time, God kind of stopped me. I could kind of hear Him tell me, "just slow down". So, I just walked along that foggy beach and danced and sang out loud to God. And it made me so happy! Just being with God, and having that mindset of being with Him was so precious to me. I think He was showing me once again how much more fulfilling He is than this world will ever be. I think I needed to see that for two reasons: One, to see that His opinion is greater than what the world thinks of me. And two, to be reminded of how fulfilling it is to have Christ as the center of my life. I have let most of my days lately, go by without taking time to even talk with God. I have missed that closeness with the Lord. And this year I want to get in the habit of making time of Him, even when it seems totally inconvenient, so He can be the center of my life again. So there they are, my two resolutions for this year. Good times ahead my friends!